january blues

january always seems to bring me down a tad. its long and slow and dead. but its almost over and we're on to febuary.

site angst

i am completely flustered everytime i think of the website. i dont know what t do with it. oh for the days pof frontpage where i could do everrything myself. the design was simple but clean; it was easy to navigate and it had a decent amount of content. i have no idea how to use the progs available today and most seem overly complicated because i get overwhelmed everytme i attempt to learn anything. grrr!
when i ask anyone to look... they want to change everything around and the simple treuth is... if i cant do it myself, i just want it cleaned up. black on white. links that lead to niteflirt and the clipstore and blog...etc. along with my couple of other pages. if i could just get that... perhaps i'd be inspired to work on it again. right now though instad of saying "fuck it" which is what i want to do... i'm looking at Nvu, a friend uses it on her site. i'll see if i cant figure a way to throw some html in there and ge what i want.... my damn self.

cheers!

ah... its a lovely grey day in california... RUN! out the door.

niteflirt was aweome last night and early this morning. though i didnt do a cam sesh last night, i'll be on later this evening! but i do so adore making money before i get out of bed.

i just finished a 30 minute cardio workout and was thinking... thank the stars i quit smoking in september or theres no way id be able to breathe and move. i feel awesome. ive been increasing the cardio over the last few months. i remember when all i could do was 5 minutes, then 7 and here i am today at a full 30 minutes. it just feels great.

so many things i want to do! time to get writing for a bit.
*squeal* im so happy i could beat someone.

brand new

brand new decade... and i'm stoked. 2010. i never would have believed i'd see it.

i received a lovely new kink designed toy bag over the holidays. i just changed over from the old bag, a regular roll type suitcase that belonged to my dad. it was bittersweet taking things from that worn case thats traveled with me from memphis, across the atlantic to the UK, to the 12 mile nude beach of negril, to miami and monterey, back to the caribbean and to dc and anchorage. *sigh*
~it's so hard to be still when you are cursed with insatiable wanderlust~
anyway... everything i brought fits in the new case perfectly. there are no wheels and it's a bit heavy since i tend to love leather and metal. it does have a shoulder strap but it seems a bit awkward to hold it that way. we'll see. it was good to take stock and see what i have with me since i separated the toys in july. I have almost all my favorite things with me.

i commited today to focus more on writing for the next 2 months, but for a little supplemental fun, i'll commit to be on boobie cam more as well. balance. we all need it.