yea, fuck you

im shaking off the cobwebs of my remaining bits of grief. coming about. its taken some time to get past, this last bit. but i feel good and im moving forward. regardless of how my body screams for me to stop. it has forsaken me.and i dont listen to it anymore.

gagaween

hilarious

yes bitch

we had a lovely time. took lots of pictures.
you will not see them here.
wonder! i did for fuckin years, you thieving cunt.

was that harsh?
nah!
ive always felt the punishment should fit the crime.
you stole a father from his daughter.
and a mother from her son.
SHAME ON YOU!!
if your god is real...
how will you answer for that one?

still surfing

it comes in waves.
it crashes, cold and shocking
taking my breath and
when it leaves, i'm afraid
then sadness,
pure sadness remains
and it washes over me.
and leaks out my eyes.
all i do is ride the waves of emotion.

fireflies or flashbulbs?

hello pessimism

theres a sadness that comes with being fucked up and thinking life is kicking the shit out of you and being sober and KNOWING that it is.

not for me

it should be no suprise that i am single as i near the end of my life.
men have run screaming from me for years.
numerous failed relationships
2 divorces
zac choosing to live w his dad
2 deceased fathers
estranged from my big brother (this time) since 90.
damn... the numbers werent with me.
perhaps it has little to do with me.

proud lil monster

the big question

im angry.
after all ive been through,
all i have survived.
to lose my life to lack of proper healthcare....
is absurd.
i had no healthcare for 9 year.
had it for a year
and lost it wheni got a good job.
6 months after i lost it they said.... "oh, you couldve paid 150 a month and kept it.
but its too late now. didnt anyone tell you that?" bloody fuck no they didnt.
now..................
do you live broke and homeless or die with money?