the experiment

I placed ads in the spring hoping to find a particular type of submissive to train. I had immense hope. In an area this size, surely there were many, eager submissives bursting with desire to please a mature, confident, domina.
I spoke with over 200. Lots of fetishists, married, inexperienced or ashamed of their proclivities. Many had distance or schedules that would make them unavailable to me or they faded out quickly. The majority never made it out the door to meet.
I met 40. Most had little or no chemistry. Sometimes on my side, sometimes on theirs.
I laid hands on 12. the ones I might have enjoyed further were weekend warriors. Wanting playtime on the weekend, after ignoring me all week. (an issue throughout this project)
I was intimate with 2. one I regret. The other was intense and amazing and i would do it again even though it burned out way too quickly. ~XxL
0 wanted this for real in their daily life. Its more of a secret they keep from the rest of the world, indulge it and you become part of the secret.

cover you in my curves

turn the lights off
cause im all yours
cover you in my curves
ill give you what you deserve
we could get lost
get the lines crossed
run it like a fever

im alive

live out loud

 

“If you ask me what I came to do in this world; I, an artist, will answer you:

I am here to live out loud.”

― Émile Zola

Make a wish

adeline have mercy!

attempts

She's waiting..

uh huh

i dont know when i realized the first time that when a female goes nuts... and starts calling you crazy, just close your mouth and she will show everyone who the real nut is. but ive had to use this practice on more females than i care to admit. ive known way more than my share.
anyone who knows me, knows my boss went nuts.
i mean bonkers.
fucking gone.
i gave my notice.
and she took a medical leave.

and slowly...the big boss is seeing....
i fucking love this.

eruption

So much has happened. So quickly. As is the norm in my life. At a time when I'm trying to structure some kind of life for myself, the ground literally erupted beneath me. The floor. The entire floor of this huge house has been damaged by a hot water leak. I have to move us. Let them fix the house and move her back in....BEFORE I have this surgery. .
Sigh
Here we go again.