how do you know who to trust?

makes me wanna holler

the tidal waves of change are back again.
i am remembering this is not quite done.
more upheaval.
just when i wonder what else can change drastically...
i give up grain and starches.
i make friends with a woman.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
hvent i learned my lesson?
if i dont let her too close can she still hurt me.
and why am i having to tackle everything ive been avoiding for the last decade?

im so caught up being a food renegade lately.
taking pics but no posting.
hopefully there will be balance in my life soon.

freakin a

i dont know nymore.
i dont understand how i make more money than i ever hve.
and im broke.
sure im able to taake cre of my bills and help the kids minimlly
but... i cant put svings together for bullshit happening
and... see... all the missing a's.
i need a new lptop.
and i have to buy  new cr stat.
that would be... c a r.

i thought making this kind of money ment i would be able to really save.
ha.

usually, i go back nd fix ll the a's.

"run as fast... as... you can"

somethin about you....

ever the voyeur

my fascination with gaga began while mourning the loss of jessie kitty. the girl i loved to watch. tragically, jessie died unexpectedly at in 2009 at 28.
no more tweets. blog posts, saucy photos. she was my escape through a rough stretch and i will never forget her.
when i ws ready to *look* again, she was in my face. i didnt want to like her, but once i looked, i ws smitten. i still am
and a pretty loyal little monster, (as in i promote, defend to the death and try to convert)




gaga.
this bitch is awesome.

grain free girl

what a whirlwind going grain free has been.
im sure ive spent  a month in the kitchen.
starting to get the hang of it now.
meat. plants. water. pretty simple.
easy on the fruit, easier on the cheese.
so weird. i never thought id be this nutrition conscious.
fucking california healthfood douchebag.
shoot me with a large calibur rifle. please.,

saturday... i spent my day off
running round to whole foods. harvest house (health food store).
then i made stuffed mushroooms. pretty delish.
went out to eat one time this week.
it cost me 5.13 for
a side of chicken and a side of guac. mexican!
i dont feel sad about it anymore.
im very hppy with what i eat.
and im suprised at the ruffled feathers when you tell someone youre grain and starch free.  addicts!