give it to me now!

Being a domme gives me the illusion of control in a world full of chaos.
give it to me.
dont try to smooth me out.
Shut the fuck up and be still. This is what *i* do.
Don't Show your cock unsolicited.
Don't ask to show it. It takes all the fire out of me demanding to see it.
I want surrender. not games.
Don't be too much about your ass or your abuse.
What I want to hear is "anything you want Domina"

Aren't you the least bit curious to see what I would come up w on my own?

found in drafts from august 8th

later that day

upon reflection, i had a hand in some of those tears.
i sarificed one then stepped in to be the hero.
i expressed my desire to return to the old schedule.
i had no idea all the madness that would ensue around it.
heads will roll!!
perhaps.
ive finally learned how to deal with women.
with MY best interest at heart.
these women, all but faye, suck the life out of me.
all consuming needy females.
i think they bathe in drama.

this you know i understand

i just got the message that everything is fixed at work.
this from she who wreaks havoc on everyone with every appearance.
leaves bitches crying and lives shattered in her wake.
and i pick up the pieces and i hug them all and tell them ill take care of it.
and i do.

all i want to do is let go of this lump of emotion in my throat,
but im afraid if i really open up... i wont stop crying for 3 damn days.

cant you just hold me for a minute
and tell ne its all gonna be ok?

let it fill you up

Bloody good time

I saw an old friend recently.

CENSORED

the blood isnt the best part

it was him laughiing like an insane fuck while i ripped him up with an electro wartenberg.

its all mine!

yea i may rot in hell but
i am not one bit sorry for the young man
i blindfolded, tied to my bed and used.
of course eventually i untied him....

i would suggest any woman over 50
fuck a young hot guy.
let them put their hands
and mouth
all over you
i always feel deliciously hotter and
more beautiful after.

mouth

hooked on this right now

out of retirement

ive been playing quite a bit lately.
im having a blast... but.
since i dont want sexual favors (i save all my lovin for baby boy;)
im feeling kind of ripped off afterwards. even resentful.

so i will be booking appointments for corporal sessions, wednesdays and fridays in walnut creek.

Girls are dis Gus-ting!

CENSORED

I don't belong to you!

all of the good ones are taken

Luna

I have been so restless. There's that word again. Today was like nails on a chalk board.a nd the there it is. Big yellow bitch in the dark sky.
No fireworks. No baby boy beneath me. Just that moon calling me. Misbehave, misbehave.