Exuberant

but do i look good?

cause i sure feel good

Shallow bitch

I guess I was wrong. I would normally have just taken my thought and myself from you. Like a punishment with no end. Cruel. But then it fades and so does the hurt of abandonment. But it's still there. It's happened to me. It's awful being left to question, standing alone, scratching your ass going" what the fuck happened here."
Instead. I go for honesty. Whether my statements true or unfounded. You asked for the truth. I gave it. Now I'm sorry I did. Fuck honesty. I'm the shallowest motherfucker alive this day!

faces

hypersensitive

i feel everything today.
it began when i woke hot and was already naked.
up and running i encountered.
people who i found superannoying.
yet i noticed it didnt bother others the way it did me.
i found good year failing to mention things to me that they offered up when i had my "son" call. cocksuckers. they fucked me $50 less than their original offer. thank you michael. i was even more upset but had cooled to ice when i entered and dealt with theim. i dont bitch. they can wait for my yelp review.
"rob" looked over my car as a courtesy then made me feel like it was falling apart. dickhead.
i called my mechanic and went to target to get oil.
i felt every conversation. every footstep. it was the oddest thing ive ever encountered.
and i remembered why i dont like people very much.
everywhere i turened. toxic feelings like daggers to my heart.
i barely made it to the parking lot before my eyes just leaked.
all down my face,
without a sound.

Changing directions.

I can't do it anymore.
All this madness. All of you.
Taking.
Taking
its coming on fall.
i want to nest. not long.
my interests are better served on me
here
and now.

i could be as patient as death...

I want this!

just in case i dont come through

Finished

these have been unfinished in my notebooks.

i struggled to see the pencil drawing. and now looking at it here,

i see how bad my eyesight has gotten.

Take me with you

Merrrrr

again.
a fearful flutter.
in.
and out.
of the gutter.

Penis envy

Survey says

A young friend recently had to survey 100 friends for school.
Here is my Q&A.

Am I content? Never. But I am having the time of my life right now. Not everyone can say that.

Learning. I learned the most working as a professional dominatrix than anywhere else in life. About myself. About people. I am a wealth of perverse information and statistics on human behaviior/sexuality and the variables of. It's not an education most would want... But I'm not most.

School. I did not do school. Some regrets. But i move forward.

My advice. Read alot, hang out with old people and dont think too much.

Devotion

Despite my human faults....

everytime i look at this card i am blown away.

WORDS so perfect.

14 years. will i ever tire of this game?  ;)

Whore

Spitting on xtians

fan mail!

From: nslaveme2day
9/8/12 11:57 AM
Hi, you stupid fucking cunt. I tire of you ignoring my messages and at least having the courtesy to tell me to fuck off. So you can go fuck off. I hope you get beat down by a big black dude and he tears your ass to shreds.

Distance

If you are at a distance and haven't met me yet.... It's all potential.
We are not betrothed or an item. And I am definitely talking to others. Until I meet the one I want to collar. Then I will rearrange my life. Any talk of details and restrictions is just that. It's simply talk.
Sometimes, even thoughts are simply that. Just thoughts.
I will not trust you til your ass walks out the door and flies into my city and kneels at my feet.
Then we can talk further.
If you expect perfection or If its all about chemistry.... And you doubt I have it. Stay home.

mommy kisses!

oh poo!

its right there under the surface
it comes up and i swallow it down.
it aches.
i keep thinking ill find the time.
truth is i have to make the time,
it doesnt magically appear.

i hate that i constantly question my motives.
when truth is... i need to be more selfish, and demanding of my needs.
in every area.

i was given a book to read for work,
the art of extreme self care

apparently.... im not nearly selfish enough.
dig!
im on top of that rose!

Big ass sky

illicit