oh poo!

its right there under the surface
it comes up and i swallow it down.
it aches.
i keep thinking ill find the time.
truth is i have to make the time,
it doesnt magically appear.

i hate that i constantly question my motives.
when truth is... i need to be more selfish, and demanding of my needs.
in every area.

i was given a book to read for work,
the art of extreme self care

apparently.... im not nearly selfish enough.
dig!
im on top of that rose!