keep on smiling

 

unless youre a hermit

youll navigate the storms of the people around you

i had major contributors to bad weather this year.

 you see that smile on my face?

i will always come back with it. wiser!

 

to the endless string of  young, old, rude, eager, jaded, boring, delicious, busy, beautiful, inexperienced, shy, hopeful, clueless and perfect...

lucky "13" lay before us like an endless road of adventure and opportunity.

i cant wait to see what happens next!

 

 

 

boo!

waiting to feel better after surgery.
i hate waiting especially on myself.
i want to move and groove and
taste, feel and explore.
still grounded for 2 more weeks.
i am not in my happy spot.
retail therapy.... all i have right now is money.
everyone gave me cash for xmas.
score.

candys room

darkness came out in 1978. i was 17 living on my own in chicago. at that time, i didnt object to people calling me sandy.

now i wont answer to it.

i knew a guy who to sang this as sandys room. fine memory.

i loved almost everyting on this album.  

to me, this is a fucking masterpiece.

in the darkness, there'll be hidden worlds that shine.

joy

12 21 12

I wasn't going down without my curls and ruby woo!
Just in case... You know. ;)

back to it

i return to work tomorrow after a month off.
i wish it had been a vacation.
i wish it had been wonderful and invigorating.
it WAS a radical step in the right direction.
long slow process this rebuilding thing.
my patience has abandoned me.

fuck thumper

ive tried to live by the rule of thumper...
"if you cant say something nice, dont say nothing"
fuck thumper.
fuck you
fuck her and him
fuck them all....
if i could spit in your fucking face right now
i would.

Back out into the strange land....

Watching the last Sunrise from my hospital room in walnut creek.
Once again my future is uncertain and I am fearless as I begin,,, again.

Essentially everything has changed. Especially me. The entirety of my life has been ripped to shreds.

Restoration!

Twelves

I want to go home.
But there is none.
Looking for release
And there is none.