rider to the gran delusion

i was thinking as i was working out about what i'd said in a previous post.
about breaking promises to yourself.
 and i thought how criminal that is... and what a hypocrit i am.
ive never done good things for myself until the last year or so.
i was so bent on destroying myself.
ive amended that somewhat, though...
theres one promise ive yet to keep.
it feels like time.