"lawd, lawd, lawd, we got nothing but trouble!"

for months ive been hesitant to express myself freely here.
worrying about who's looking, reading, paying attention.
i worry about losing my job. alienating people, stepping on feelings.
this will not do.
i started this blog for myself
it was always to be a place for me to write. period.
and we write what we know.
this is my life.

so here it is again, in white on black....
to all former friends lovers and husbands. (makes obscene gesture)
to present loved ones admirers and friends....
if you dont like it. dont look.