the moon is hangin like your hat

i know the right thing to do.
but im just not ready.
i have a long time servant. michael. who has been with me through addiction, insanity, recovery, heartache, near death, triumph and getting me the fuck out of alaska. ive been able to lean on him since i bailed out of england.
the situation is volatile and someone will be hurt.
i just want the least amount of innocents hurt.

added 4-21 12:18pm
i also feel that its my duty as the dominant to protect.
and therefore to bare the brunt of the emotional pain.